Is workaholism and busyness and overcommitment even worth it? I mean, I enjoy the spending money, and continue to believe that "later" this will all be worth it and "next year" will be so much better, but what about now? Will there really ever be a next year or later, or is it, and I fear it may be, that tomorrow is not real, and today is all there is? [Praise Jesus for the eternal tomorrow we have to hope (patiently) for.] So what am I doing with my now? I truly despise going to class three nights a week on top of the day, working all hours in between, and the homework and time that come on top of those things. I am so tired on the weekend it is all I can do to do more than lay on the couch and watch tv and movies. I am being pulled in so many different directions I cannot commit my whole heart, time, and attention to any one of them, so all of them suffer. All of them.
I need a break.
"Let the morning bring word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I life up my soul. Rescue me from my enemies, O Lord, for I hide myself in you. Teach me to do your will, for you are my God; may your good Spirit lead me on level ground." -Ps 143:8-10